Managing the clinic takes a huge amount of energy. It's stressful, and I'll be honest: I'm not happy doing it. It's not quite what I'd imagined: a lot more administration, a lot more dealing with complaints and with needy people - both clients and employees.
So I've given myself permission to not think or write - a mental vacation - and spend my free time playing Warhammer Online.
Sometimes it's necessary to shut off for a while.
I'll be back. I always am. Either I'll find balance at this job, or I will go back to doing massage.